Feeling abit tired, but will still blog this entry. something pretty much on my mind. was in the theatre, when i received a msg from a fren. in e msg, he asked me..e gist is something like " how can i stand this particular fren of ours. " hmm...well, after knowing that fren for so many years, i still duno why. heh. hmm..like perhaps what this fren mentioned in the sms, "that fren of ours has a good heart. " Some frens come and go, some friends stay, and some friends leave footprints in yr heart. at different points in life, we meet different pple. i have come to understand that my requirements of my friends have been too high. and have come to accept that as pple grow, pple change too. changes in their goals and motivations, their perspectives, etc. i have come to learn that we are all going our separate ways, chasing our dreams. sometimes, when i m down, and how i wished that maybe perhaps this certain grp of friends will be with me...hmm...but to my disappointment, they are not..then, i ll feel so disappointed with them..but.. i have slowly come to understand that they are not obliged to do this. i mean in the sense of..( hmm..too tough to explain) Sometimes i do doubt if these friends still treat me as their good friend? haha..well, i shoudnt be doubting it.. but..yeah, there are reasons to doubt it.. so we ll see.. and time will tell.. for now, maybe a bit more effort will help. When we met up, topics of conversations have decreased, there r things that some of them dun wish to share with one another anymore ( i totally dunno wats there to hide, or perhaps i m just too naive to understand their complicated mind), it has been hard to find something everyone agrees upon, and sometimes i feel that these ' meeting-ups' are not fulfilling.. but then, once again...meeting up is still better than totallly not meeting up at all. I do count myself lucky for having made many good friends in my course of life so far. Indeed, God has blessed me with many cherished ones. but soemtimes, seriously speaking... putting too much hopes into friends..hmm..may be... is worth a second tot. I may sound cynical. but yupz. when too much hopes are placed, u will tend to hurt more easily. tots are pretty jumbled up now. yupz. but to the friend who sent me the sms. if u do read this , just wan to tell u that " Have a bit more faith in both yrself and your friend. Discover the perfection in this imperfection." For me, i hope at the end of the day, the friends i make do stay. if not, i just wan to say " Your footprint stays with me."
